When I can't Write

Writing for GraceFull Parenting has been an interesting experience so far. Some of the things we share are very personal and bring up painful memories. There is good too, and we love to share the funny and the happy. However, my greatest lessons were learned during moments of pain, and sorrow. Writing about these moments is painful because of the emotions they expose. Like the time Ellie spent 10 days in pediatric ICU. That was tough, but we learned a lot.  And I wouldn’t trade the lessons away. (Story for another day.)

chronic illness of child

Parenting a child with special needs isn’t a short term issue. It isn’t a job loss, a wrecked car, or a bad grade in school. Those hit us hard, but are over relatively quickly. The illnesses our children live with are a life-long issue for them. My daughter may never move out. My son will always have autism. Sam will deal with a poor immune system for the rest of his life. As we watch our children struggle with these issues, sometimes it breaks my heart. I wish I could take away their disabilities, but I can’t.

So as I share our story with you, there are times I can’t write. I can’t express the pain, the heartache, or the private moments that I ponder in my heart. It is difficult to express that pain in words. And sometimes, I don’t want to.

Thank you for taking this journey with us. Please excuse our silence when things are difficult here, and thank you for being supportive as we share a bit of our lives with you.

heartache and pain of special needs children

heartache of special needs
Grace having a difficult moment of her own.

This post is part of the Finish the Sentence Friday link-up on Finding Ninee and The Mad Mommy.

0 thoughts on “When I can't Write

  1. I get this. I feel this everyday. My son has autism and a few other things, and I try to think about the future. Sometimes, I can see it. Other times, I can’t. However, I know he will always have autism and he may never leave my home, but we still try to give him the skills he needs, in case he does.

  2. I definitely understand about the struggles and about not wanting to write about them sometimes. When my son was younger, I had less reservations, but the older he gets, sometimes, I just *can’t* write. I’m so glad you linked up!

  3. Ooh, this hit me right in the heart. While I don’t have kids with special needs, I do understand that feeling of not being able to express heartbreak in my writing. I just can’t do it sometimes.

  4. I can so relate to silence when things are difficult. Over a year ago, we were going through difficult times with our adult daughter with special needs. I couldn’t write. I didn’t want to write. What I needed was silence–at least until I was ready to write again. And I agree with you, we learn the most during the trials in our life. They are often the most valuable lessons. p.s. you blog site is beautiful

      1. Thank you Linda. That pain that comes from intense trials is isolating, but I’m glad for the lessons learned. I am excited for your book to come out. I think it will resonate with me.

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